If you follow me on instagram, you have likely seen all my snippets of updates and Nora things. You have likely heard our big news, too-- Baby number 2 will be arriving in March! That is part of the reason I had to stop writing in the first place- I felt so terrible for most of August and into September that I just couldn't do anything than what was absolutely necessary. I napped every day when Nora napped, which used to be my etsy and blogging time, and was in bed shortly after she was every night. I was nauseous, had migraines, had no appetite, stopped exercising, was extremely tired and I just didn't know how I would get through it... but thankfully about the middle of September, I came out alive and well and am now almost 20 weeks along!
|At 18 weeks- feeling way bigger than I was last time at 18 weeks!|
I have many different feelings about the new baby. Of course, feelings of joy and gratitude and excitement are the first things that spring to mind! But, I think a lot about how it will affect Nora. I never had a sibling growing up- I had step siblings who came into my life when I was 8 years old and I refer to them as my real sisters now, as it seems they have always been there now and they are both such a big part of my life. But as a little girl, I remember spending a lot of time with adults and all the attention I used to get. I got A LOT of adult attention, much like Nora does now. I spent a lot of time crying over her pending lack of adult attention and things I may not be able to do with her anymore once the baby comes. And then I realized that she is going to love the baby just as much as we do and she will have a lifelong playmate, something I never really had. Miss bossy pants is going to be so excited to have someone to lead around and call her own. It will be so special to see them together and of course, my baby will always be my baby, I'll just have two instead of one!
My life feels like it is in constant fast forward right now. I have always been really organized and good at time management, total type A personality, as you know. You have no idea how hard it is to feel like I can never get organized or caught up and never quite put in enough time to things that are important to me. I haven't done anything creative in the last 3 months, I have barely cooked, unless it is a fried egg, canned soup or grilled cheese sandwich, and I am not getting enough sleep. My week consists of working 5 days, shuffling Nora to her various childcare places, prepping for the next day, and trying to make inspired and educated decisions about our new house interior while grabbing bare necessities for groceries somewhere along the way. It is mayhem. Well, it's my mayhem, anyway. I am a total homebody and introvert and I can't STAND not having "me time", even if that means one hour in the evenings where I have nothing to do. "Nothing to do" is not a phrase I have used in the last 3 months. It's quite the opposite and it's been really, really hard.
However, Tom and Nora keep me going and of course, the thought of being in our brand new house with a new baby and my sweet Nora June, with a whole year of maternity leave, in a matter of months is enough to light a fire under my ass and get me off to work every morning to continue the circus act that is life right now! If you were thinking of building a house, teaching kindergarten full time (FOR THE FIRST TIME) and being pregnant with a 2 year old at home and a husband who is away 4 nights a week, I'm not going to lie to you and say it will be a breeze.
|When I need a pick me up, I look at this picture, or just go and stand in there and I feel instantly better- look at all that cabinet space!!!! And it's BRIGHT! It's not a basement!|
A chip off the old block, that one, she LOVES crafts! She goes to daycare once a week and the daycare told me they can't keep enough craft projects on hand for when Nora is there. She could sit and paint, glue, cut, stick, colour, ALL DAY. It's so cute to see all the fun things they send home with her. She loves colouring, although the "only colour on paper" phrase that I say about 1000 times a day hasn't quite stuck into that terrible two year old brain of hers and we somehow have pencil, pen, felt, stickers... all over everything in sight, even Tom's back when he took his shirt off last night!
Speaking of terrible twos, although she is adorable and funny and smart as a whip, it doesn't come with out its challenges either. She can drive me mental at the end of a long day (or the start of one!) with the typical "I want water, no not in that cup, I pick the cup, I pull them all out of the drawer, I spill the water all over my shirt, I need a new shirt, no don't wipe up the water, I wipe the water, oops I wiped it with your coat, now I need a new coat, now we both need new outfits, no not that outfit!, now I want toast, I'm not leaving until I have toast...." I could go on and on! She is also not yet potty trained. I think she could be potty trained by now if I really had the time to devote to helping her. Isn't that bad? I am too busy to try and help my own child use the bathroom!? Honestly, I am getting really sick of the diapers, but the thought of weeks of constant accidents and remembering to ask her every five minutes to use the toilet might send me over the edge right now. I have made myself a promise that she will be potty trained before the end of 2015. She has a potty and uses it on her own occasionally. She will do it at daycare because she likes doing what the other kids are doing and they have a sticker reward chart for using the potty which motivates her. She likes running around with no diaper on, but has yet to let us know when she is about to go (although she always knows when she has a diaper on...) and often waits to go until she has a diaper back on instead of using the potty we have at home. It's just a matter of cutting off diapers all together and actually making the commitment to doing it. Soon...
She LOVES music and singing and knows so many songs now, it's adorable. We have some Raffi CDs which I love too, they totally bring me back to my childhood and still know all the words to them and it makes me so happy to hear her little voice bellowing out the chorus to those songs. She can sing "you are my sunshine" from beginning to end and I die every time she does because it's just so cute. She can also sing the whole song of the ABCs and Twinkle Twinkle. And on the topic of the alphabet, she is pretty much a genius because she already knows 4 letters and the sound they make and many words that start with the same letter! She sees an N and says, N N N Nora! N for Nora and nice and nose and noodles! She often comes up with new N words on her own. She also knows M for mommy, D for daddy and dog and G for Gammy and Gran. She spots them everywhere! Yesterday we were at the pool and she pointed out the D and the N's in the NO DIVING sign on the pool deck!
What fun we had for her first time Trick or Treating on the weekend. She figured out pretty quickly what was going on when her bucket was filling up with candy by the minute! We all dressed up at clowns this year, just like our real life little clown we deal with every day. I have to say, she was the cutest clown I have ever seen, even though the costumes were pretty thrown together and half assed. She said "trick or treat" and "thank you" at every house and even though 10 houses was plenty for us, she could have kept going all night!
Some more of her favourite phrases are "please don't, excuse me!, oopsie doopsie!, that's FUNNY!, probably...., maybe go XXX?, help me!, I waked up! (as she is supposed to be falling asleep in the first place) and silly xxx! (referring to whoever is teasing her)". There are a million more that I can't do any justice out of context.
Needless to say, I am counting the minutes until I have more time to spend with her and devote back to my hobbies and "me time". Even with a newborn, I will feel more sane than I do now, right?!
Until next time.... Thank you for all your support and for keeping with us on instagram!